How Am I Not Myself?

Tonight it was I Heart Huckabees. After the workshop at Cornerstone tonight I had a need for something that reflected the mood I was in. And so the existential comedy came off the DVD shelf. Very, very, very appropriate for The Divine Comedy. The film is all about tearing down our perceptions of ourselves and the world, and how we inevitably get sucked back into human drama. The final question of the film (literally, at the end of the credits) is "How am I not myself?" I think it is a question that we need to constantly ask ourselves. How do we behave in such a manner that is not reflective of our true selves? What is my true self anyway? What is truth for that matter? All questions that should weigh heavily on our minds. But I don't think they do. Again, all part of The Divine Comedy.

Tonight the question I left with from the workshop was "How can I be whole and balanced?" And I think I Heart Huckabees explores a certain aspect of that. There are so many ways to approach life and the world. Which one is right? The lesson of the film is that no one single approach or view is correct. We have to find this balance of several in order to see the big picture. But understanding the need for balance and actually finding that balance are two different things. I have the first, and we will all have to work for the rest of our lives to find the second. This path has no end, but it is the one we must walk.